Tuesday, October 31, 2006
10:13:00 PM

hey peeps. LOL. i dunno wad to say. hmm.

oh we had a mini class outing today. hahah. had class lunch. hahaha. at pasta. Hm. i therefore conclude that we are very indecisive people as we have to walk around parkway so many times before the we could decide. bahx. its quite interesting can. cuz we have like 10 hungry people. staring at food wherever we go. like hungry ghost. hmm.

actually im quite brain dead now. so i have no idea wad i just said. ohwell. i need to sleep. =(

hols are no longer like hols.
its more of a disaster in disguise.

9more days to OP
6more days to class chalet.
2more days to start of a's. =(

Monday, October 30, 2006
11:43:00 PM

i was sitting in KFC. lookin out of the glass pane. the guy outside was perspiring profusely. he was setting up his magazine stall. his brows were furrowed tgt. yet he persist on. arranging the magazines accordingly. den finally he sat down. that was when i realised that earning a living is not easy. that the money my parents earns, is hard earned. even tho they dont sweat like the man did. they gave in their best shot at the job. in return, they get money. the money used to provide a living for their precious children. but i, who spent money like water, finally realises how tough it was to earn money. finally, i learn how to cherish. the surrounding noises cease to exist temporarily. the realisation hit me with a bang. i dont look at the man with eyes of pity, but with admiration. cuz im sure, he has a family to feed too. thats why he persisted.

ok that was random. but well. and im coming to hate PW. OHWELL. i dont know really. just getting tired. relationships being destroyed and all that i suppose. what i thought was not what is shown. somehow, the words no longer tally with what you say. somehow, you appear to be a different person whom u appear to me. RAH. pw is jus another sickening subject which we have to endure for another 10days and it will be over!

really. im looking forward to the class chalet. HEHE. and really, many things made my day today. (((=
time to fly. and let myself sink into happiness. let my worries be free. let them be gone.

Tagged by Mu and MUA LOL

One. Think of 15 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself. And they've gotta be true.

Two. Come up with 5 false statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.

Three. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.

Four. Post them on your blog and let people guess which the five false ones are!

Five. Get 5 others to do the same.


1. i am scared of butterflies.
2. i cry when i watch emo movies
3. i dreamt that me matt and mu were dead. but we dissected ourselves too. hMm.
4. i love waking up in the morning
5. i stepped into dog shit before
6. i like go to butterfly park
7. i hate the alarm clock.
8. my bedroom is pink
9. i love veggies
10. i love cucumber+egg.
11. i dont have much pimples.
12. i once killed a butterfly by accidentally stepping on it
13. i rolled down my stairs before
14. i am not scared of cockroaches.
15. i can sleep more than 24hrs.

Sunday, October 29, 2006
8:23:00 PM

heyheyhey. its been long eh? hahaah. oh well. i went out with mai old frenz ((((= whee. its been like ages~ and i miss them so so so much~ hahaha. oh and mai overall results for promos is DDDDS YAY. im quite happy with it. hahaha. juz tat i tink i nid ta improve in mai econs ba. LOL. which i got a S for LOL. bahx.

im so gna miss mai darling cuz he will be gg army on the 11th jan =( boohoo. and he has A's =( so yea i have ta endure a long long time not meeting him. boohoo.

den finally we got to to matt's house to majong. its been a trillion years since i been there an im glad tat matt's mum stil remembers mai name~ hahaha. =))))

hMm oh and i had class outing with thirtytwo! hahaah. glad we are bonding alrdy. its a fast year and now its da hols. i think it will be a veh fast paced one. so i must treasure everymoment i have. oh did i mention tat mai toilet realy stinks with all the chemical smell?? like i nid to breath can. and i cant use the top toilets. so i have to use the tiny one downstairs =( i think i have a little claustrophobia. bleahx =P

oh. and minyu suggests tat i should change mai skin. hMm i tink so too. hahaha. its blogskin btw not mai skin. and yea i will think about it. i really like this skin alot!! AHH. hahaha. well tats all for today ba?hahaha. whee. nxt time i shall blog more in depth abt mai encounters and mai hols =) now its maple time!!!!! WOOT~

oh and i have been watchin goong alot. IM ADDICTED TO IT! hahaah. (= i wna watch it again!!!!!

Tuesday, October 17, 2006
3:02:00 PM

heyheyhey! haha.

im back to blog. hmm got back some of mai results le. bahx. i cant say im veh happy. but i cant say im sad too. im like stuck in the middle. oh well i dunno.

i passed mai maths H2. but somehow i culdnt bring myself to be happy about it. esp when i put in so much effort. but i know that i should be happy cuz im actually better off le and to others, they may want mai marks too. and yes i tink i shld be happy, but.. im rather disappointed with myself. LOL. i tink im greedy. bahx. but well. i dunno larx.

and i think that some people really deserves more than what they got. and i feel bad, for scraping pass but mai frenz did not. argh i have no idea wad im talkin abt. hMm lets juz say, i wuldnt be happy if i get promoted but mai frenz didnt. yea.

but i tink i wun get too. mai chem, i got back the essay questions. i oni got 17/40. thats really bad. ahhh. and the ans are on the matrix. but i cant bear to look at it. boo. cuz im afraid that mai MCQ and structured will die. i nid 28 more marks to pass chem. i really hope to pass chem. else i cant get promoted. i dowan the incidence of JCT to repeat itself. i really dowana get retained. but sometimes, i can only leave it up to fate. =( i hope i have enuf tyconess to pass chem cuz econs really cannot make it. heh. hopefully.

yesterday, went for retail therapy with wanhsin desmond and clovis. hahaha. its really useful man. i didnt really think abt mai results at all. i juz wna forget abt everything and have fun. haha. at first we juz wna go and eat pasta, but we ended up caring and sharin and we went to watch movie. hahaha. ohwell. it really helps alot. thanks man. hee. bahx.

ooo i watched world trade centre. its really a great movie. i cry and cry at da end. so scary and i wonder how traumatising it'll be to me if i were them. whats scary is the damage a humanbeing is able to do to another human being. and it made me realise how big courage is. and how much encouragement and care can mean to someone who's at the verge of dying. and how powerful determination is to the survival of these men who survived 911. watching the show made my worries abt promos insignificant. and it made me treasure what i have now more. and one phrase in the movie that keep replaying in my head 'pain is good. pain is your friend. feeling pain means you are still alive' next time when i feel pain, i should not complain so much, but feel thankful that im alive enough to feel the pain.

and watching the movie makes me want to see mai frenz ,family and boyfriend immediately. knowing that life is unpredictable, and i might lose them anytime. haha and i was crying in the movie and was worryin whether the two men will be saved or not. den i realised, the movie is made from the accounts of the two men who survived. so DUH they wun die. ahhh. i felt stupid but it doesnt stop me from feel sad. BLEAHX.

i bet if unice watches it, u have to give her many many tissue boxes. wahahah. i tink give her mani boxes also not enuf =X

aniways, i go le haha. booo. haaha lookin forward to sakae!!!and gg out with besties!!!its been ages!!!!!(((((((:

Thursday, October 12, 2006
11:53:00 AM

heys all. haha. im so depressed! whee. cuz promos is so over. i dunno whether to feel relief or scared. in just one week, the papers which would determine mai future, is over. but the exhileration of it ending did not come. at first i thought maybe it would take a while for the information to sink in, but now, after 26hrs, i dont feel it at all. instead, the panic of promos is replaced with emptiness and worries. call me paranoid, but i really dunwna get retained.

for GP, i went with a open mind, that no matter wad happens, i must write properly, i mus t link back to da qn, i must comprehen what ever the passage is. but in the end, i wonder if im out of point. i wonder if i had done all that i can for the essay. i wonder if i had done all that i can for my compre.

for Econs, i didnt prepare much for it, cuz i know no matter how hard i prepare for it, its still an ungraded. but still, i read tru, hoping that i wont fail so badly, upon looking at the questions, i started to regret. it is rather managable i suppose, yet i did not put in the effort for it. it suddenly strike me that, its the promos and i shouldnt take it so lightly, but what to do?what's done is alrdy done.

for Maths, i practiced really hard for it. but i tink i will fail in the end. its very depressing considering the amount of hope im pinning on my maths. i dunno whether to laugh cuz its over, or cry cuz i culd have done much more.

for Chem, i literally cried while studyin for it. theres just so many things to study, so many things to revise, so many reagents to memorise that i just broke down. i feel like killing myself when after all the revision, i still couldnt do the past year paper. in the end, kiphoe has to rush down from his house at 8pm, to give me last minute tuition. it makes me more guilty cuz he has tonnes of homework that day, yet he gave them all up just to calm me down. i think i should just grow up. and try not to rely on people so much. the paper will be ok if there's more time. i culdnt finish the essay questions! and that take up so much of the paper. i feel so stupid. all that i have studied for, will be wasted. hais.

for Lit, i didnt really prepare. or u can say, nothing to prepare, a unseen poem and pride and prejudice. what more can i do but wait for the verdict to pass?

hahah. i guess this is what you call crying over spilt milk. boohoo. i so wna die.

and im so upset by muthu and matt cuz they started a new acc and didnt tell me till yesterday~ SO MEAN. hmpf. bu ba wo dang best friend le arx~ hmpf. hahah. i wan sakae treat. WHEE.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006
12:01:00 PM

hey its me. hahaha. veh veh veh long neva update le~ hmm. i feel super happy. cuz theres oni 4 more papers to go before end of promos.
haha. but i oni have 5papers. so im like not even quarter way tru can. hahaha. oh well. and im here bloggin. i dunno wad da hell am i tinkin but i jzu cant sit down and mug for econs. theres soooooo many distraction at home. hahah. the come the phone the bed. THE FOOD. OMGOMGOMGOMG. im like gg so fat larx. cuz i keep eating and eating and eating!!!! hahahaha.

i miss mai baby. woot. i tink im causing his results to drop haahah. so i tink i shld not see him until his exams ends. like after november. :(((((

and i cant wait to go out with mai besties again!!!!!!! GO SAKAE ((((: WOOT. hahaha

bahx. its like ages since i last saw them! i MISS THEm SO SO SO MUCH. hahaah. and lucky unice and minyu are stil hvin hols when we have promos! BOOHOO.

oh did i mention im not gg korea le. cuz if i go korea, mai family cannot go genting. den its like veh unfair larx. so i decided to give up the chance of gg korea for them. and yea also cuz mai toilet started leaking. SO i have to give up korea for da toilet repair fee. wth. haahahah. but yea. i dowan mai shit to drip on me when im in da kitchen ma! so its a sacrifice i must make. actually quite sad larx but its really expensive. HENCE in order to reward me for givin up mai chance, i told mai mum to giv me more money to go shoppin when we go m'sia and NOW! (((:

okie. i feel better. hahah.

i miss mattmumudessminyuunicejasminejaslynserhuasihan. ARGH. i miss them SO much!
i miss studying with them.
i miss acting stupid with them.
i miss being retard with them.
i miss da noise.
i miss laughing with them!

BOOO. promos is making me depressed! HAHAA. :()
LALALA
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